BALATKARI SUBJECT- RPN

22nd feb ..my exams are getting started,not a new thing, but wat's new in these exams is the feeling dat is constantly fluctuating in my heart just like the way a tubelight fluctuates when it is on the urge of giving up its life..dun worry ma feeling is not as same as that of the tubelight...bt the speed v/s time graph of fluctuation of ma feelings is constantly increasing its slope..to be precise guyz"mera balatkar ho gaya hai"...nd the balatkari is a subject of mine called as "RPN"-random process and noises..."m not preparing it anymore i m ready 4 a back"--"wat r u saying u idiot how will u prepare it afterwards..du it, u can "dese feelings have just saturated me 2 hell..for four hrs i was stuck nd didnt read even a word jst bcoz dese stupid thoughts are not leaving me..i m seriously not into any thng now..whether i will prepare it or i won't, its on the edge..its "aar or paar"now..i dont kno i m fred up wth dis subject and also i m out of "all iz welll" now, it seriously don't help..so guyz plzz pray 4 mee nd hope dat i could be able to prepare dis balatkari subject and finally get through it..i need you gud wishes..