WAT CHANGES .."CIRCUMSTANCES OR PEOPLE.."?

yaa..it must be new 2 u guyz..mee with a serious topic..!!..bt had 2 write as ma blog is to share ma thoughts..frankly speaking life really depends on the circumstances.The people we know..who r close 2 our heart,without them,d day dont start, neither ends...people do holds these kind of places in our hearts,and i m sure everyone of u mst hav 1.But wat happens wen the actual face behind dese mask unfolds..the very next reaction is .."is dis the person,i was close 2..?"true isnt it."Circumstances"..d biggest word in our life,i think so.It can alter ur life through a 180 degree rotation..either in +ve or in -ve,either way it wants and den the game starts..the person who was with u in your gud times jst vanishes like a magician in a cloud of smoke without even chanting "abra ca dabra"..jst in a click.The moment wen u need someone to hold your hand in ur deepest and darkest times..is again expecting the bloody hell out of u.."if u were in pain,u could have told me".."you have always talked 2 mee..so wat happened now.." and bla bla..i jst wana know..wen dat person was with you..did he wait for your authentication abt ur problem ?..if he did then surely he deserved d same..but wat abt the people who were with u in ur darkest fears..they washed ur tears wen they needed to be blocked.Its very easy 2 expect bt its difficult 2 fulfill those expectations..stop giving lame excuses like.."i m alwayz been lik dis..i never initiate".. " i knew but i thought i should not interfere".. u know dese statements really hurt..because if the person really matters 2 u,u cant resist his absence,neither u cant wait for the initiation. how much a person is strong enough..he also need someone to take care of..if he is giving 100%..believe me he only expect 10%..dat is enouh for him 2 mak him feel better.but wen he finds no one,it doesnt take much time for him 2 jst back off frm ur life 4 ever.So friends seriously if you hav someone close to your heart..and u need 2 talk..do it now..unless the time will run out..and wen it will happen..u will be left with nothing...dats my point..nd if u du it will work believe me.Circumstances are the only thing which changes a person but it depends on the person in which way it changes him..either in positive way or negative way..and dat makes a personality and nature of a person.so dont trust any1 easily as u never know "the real mask could abt 2 b unfold"..

freedom..!!!!

"FREEDOM"..i never felt this word so deeply as i felt it today..ya friends i m finally done with ma exams of "the 5th sem"..yes,the 5th sem..u kno why??because 1 feb -11th march,in dis period of almost 40 days..i have been fighting for ma survival just like d way our freedom fighters would have fought for our country..in ma case the only difference was..they were fighting with britishers..i was fighting wth my books..dere slogan was "quit india"..mine was "quit engg."dere day was 15th aug..mine was 11th march,so almost d same..seriously,i cant pen down my feeling abt wat i really felt during my exams..the level of frustration..serious attempts of tearing up ma books for almost 10 times..gazing people outside my window and thinking abt how lucky dey are dat dey can go anywere,without no tension.Now it mst be seeming like dat its too much on part of mee..and dat is the only thing which made me realize that "what the hell was my 5th sem"..but now its over..HOPE SO!...dere is so much i want to share but,it will take some while..so i should better shut up now wth "me and my 5th sem"...nd enjoy with ma FREEDOM..will be back soon with ma "experiences with books"..

LUCK BY FEVER..???

Today i dont hav much to say.. i have got fever and i m not able 2 study,n still left wth a bundle of syllabus of electronics lying in ma room, which is not seeming less than a godown of books..3 days are left and now, dis fever.."i m dead"..jst hoping 2 get well soon..nd back 2 ma daily hectic rountine of dating ma books.. :-) need ur wishes friends.

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BALATKARI SUBJECT- RPN

22nd feb ..my exams are getting started,not a new thing, but wat's new in these exams is the feeling dat is constantly fluctuating in my heart just like the way a tubelight fluctuates when it is on the urge of giving up its life..dun worry ma feeling is not as same as that of the tubelight...bt the speed v/s time graph of fluctuation of ma feelings is constantly increasing its slope..to be precise guyz"mera balatkar ho gaya hai"...nd the balatkari is a subject of mine called as "RPN"-random process and noises..."m not preparing it anymore i m ready 4 a back"--"wat r u saying u idiot how will u prepare it afterwards..du it, u can "dese feelings have just saturated me 2 hell..for four hrs i was stuck nd didnt read even a word jst bcoz dese stupid thoughts are not leaving me..i m seriously not into any thng now..whether i will prepare it or i won't, its on the edge..its "aar or paar"now..i dont kno i m fred up wth dis subject and also i m out of "all iz welll" now, it seriously don't help..so guyz plzz pray 4 mee nd hope dat i could be able to prepare dis balatkari subject and finally get through it..i need you gud wishes..

COGNIZANCE

"COGNIZANCE..2010" ,IIT Roorkee techno fest that is going to held on 26th of march..now why i m talking about it..well dis is jst one more addition to ma so called collection of those unfullfilled clusters of dreams, dat i used 2 think wen i was in 12th.Actually wen i was in process of making myself to be jst eligible for engineering i.e wen i was preparing for "the entrance" exams for the most prestigious institution of india.. specifically NIT's and IIT's..i dont know dat what kind of feeling or power or il say madness was forcing me to believe dat "yes dude you can crack iit"..imagine guyz not even thinking for NIT's..directly IIT's..oh god evry 1 should know the size of there shoes..kk cuming back, actually when i came to know from a friend of mine dat..dere is tech fest goin to held at IIT Roorkee, i immediately went for its site and was hoping 2 see sum gr8 stuff out dere.surely i did found really cool workshops and techno trips they are organizing,but along with it,again a dream of mine was shattered into pieces..nd it was of getting a good job after ma engineering..i was askin maself.."dude luk at d way dese students are workin around.. a huge platoon of IITians and NITians are jst preparing with dere armours of iit degrees and various courses to jst enter into the battle field of industries nd sweep all of us away"..so now again by god grace i m back wth a new thought of mine dat i m goin to attend their workshops and will compete wth dem along wth ma degree,.. so what if dey r from IIT..i will b having double experience 1 frm ma univ nd second frm there college..dats called positivity..so guyz if any 1 want 2 enroll for their workshops here is link http://cognizance.org.in/main/workshops/autonomous_robotics/index.php...i would probably be goin for it..and for all my friends...nothing to worry abt..jst say"ALLL IZZZ WELLLL"

so finally i m out of ma dilemma of not expressing ma feelings through writing..first o all i should introduce ma self 2 u ..hi guyz dis is "RAGHAV "..an engineering student frm jammu university..ya,finally doin engineering..after some serious setbacks that could have blown me out of d serious competition which i called as "arena of competition"..i thnk i shuld stop dis crap now..nd shuld return back 2 mee.. as it is ma first blog aftr all.so first of all i want 2 giv credit to 2 frnds of minee who jst hav ignited dis spark in me of writing a blog...which i dont know will last for how many days.??nd frnds dey r sneha urf sepo..nd vandana urf vandy..hey girlz i need ur support in dis kk...so well jst 4 d start i jst wana say guyz m a preety enjoyable nd completely harmless person,until ma all harmones are working properly..i really love ma parents n d ma frnds are vry precious 4 mee..i m jst posting a video 2 day to jst giv u a brisk introduction of mee nd du comments ma frnds jst 2 boost me up..